There was another life I might have had, but I am having this one.


I have been oh so very busy lately. Between work, vacations, and starting my new job with the NHL/ Columbus Blue Jackets, I have hardly been home. But all this hustle and bustle has me thinking about the life I have, the life I might have had and the life I am yet to have. Here I am right now, busy as ever, with little time to reflect. But on my vacation, I considered that my life could have gone one way, but went the other. I could have been in one situation, but chose another. It's funny how things work out. How we have a plan A, B, and C. We weigh the options and we say, if A doesn't work out, then I'll consider B. I did this with the Blue Jackets. After, I auditioned, I thought, "If I don't make it, I'll consider other options and look at new opportunities, maybe even in different cities." But I made it. So here I am. 

There was another life I might have had, but I am having this one. 

This week, I decided to work on embracing all the changes in my life and being tousled in a storm of new and old and bad and good.

Because a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor.

I'm ready for this season, this fall and whatever is to come after that. And after the leaves change and spring makes things new again, I'll consider new options. Maybe a move, but maybe not. I love this season of my life where I am open to whatever; letting the wind and God's voice lead me. It's nice to know it's up to me to decide, with a little help from prayer, of course. I've met so many wonderful and exciting people during this new season of my life, and I hope they're around for seasons to come. 

I'm reminded somehow through all of these changes and experiences to rest in God when I can. I aim to make time for resting in his presence, when I have a second to catch my breath. 

He says, “Rest with me a while. You have journeyed up a steep, rugged path in recent days.  The way ahead is shrouded in uncertainty. Look neither behind Me nor before you. Instead focus your attention on Me, your constant Companion. Trust that I will equip you fully for whatever awaits you on your journey. 

I designed time to be a protection for you. You can’t bear to see all of your life at once.  Though I am unlimited by time, it is in the present moment that I meet you. Refresh yourself in My company, breathing deep draughts of My Presence. The highest level of trust is to Me moment by moment. I am with you, watching over you wherever you go.”

Genesis 28:15 says: "Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have spoken to you.”

How refreshing is that? He says, "have a life, have your life but also embrace that tomorrow may look different. Embrace the busyness and the journey, but when it gets to be too crowded and crazy, rest with me a while."

I love the feeling of peace that brings and I think I'll cling to that upon my return from vacation as I step into a busy season of work, dance and hockey, of course:)