Last night, I was feeling pretty productive. I had just cleaned my apartment and watched a few episodes of House of Cards. (Still catching up! No spoilers pls!) I decided that because I was on a roll, I would get more work done too. I wanted to read a chapter of a novel I'm reading called "The Hopefuls." It's about Washington D.C. and the Obama campaign. Apparently, I am in a political mood lately. I wanted to blog, bring you guys my latest book review and had some emails to catch up on (yes, on a Friday night.)
And I felt flustered, of course. I always start a million little projects and end up finishing none of them! I was tired but there was so much I wanted to get started. What to do first? So, I got out my bible and honestly just opened it to whichever page fell open. It wasn't even the page where the silky book mark ribbon was! When I flipped open my Bible, it was on John, Chapter 15.
"I am the true vine and my Father is the gardener ... Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing."
Apart from me, you can do n o t h i n g.
Oh. That's right.
I kept saying that part of the verse over and over again to myself. Wow. I sat back and realized that if I wanted to get anything done... if I have any goals, short term or long term, I have to go to Him first.
So I prayed and I remembered that God wants us to rely on Him.
How would we ever know his strength if we don't experience moments of weakness?
How could we ever climb the mountain if we didn't start in the valley?
How would we know he is a healer if we are not put in situations where we need to be healed?
He really is in control when things seem to be the most OUT of control. I think that's pretty comforting.
Now don't get me wrong. I don't think we are helpless human beings without Him. We still have free will to make our own choices and decisions that shape our lives. And it is still important to have dreams and goals. But I'd much rather be connected to the vine. I certainly don't know which direction I am supposed to go but there's good news! He does. I know it takes a lot of trust to follow Him blindly, right? It's scary. But when the verse smacks me in the face and it's the first thing I see when I open the Bible, well I don't feel so blind after all. I think that's his way of communicating with me. And I suddenly don't think that's so scary at all. I think that's pretty cool of Him.
So my advice: If you want to be productive, go to Him first. If you are feeling anxious about tasks, your future, your job or finances, ask him to seek you and know your thoughts. I pray you find the answers there or can at least walk lightly knowing He knows your next move before you do. He's got your day planned and has already walked your path.